Whether our boo-boos came from tripping on something or from someone close to us doing something we didn't like or expect, it sucks to be the one that got hurt.
Sometimes you cry, sometimes you throw a fit, and sometimes you don't feel anything (literally and figuratively).
But, life goes on.
Life goes on even if we aren't ready for it.
We can either learn to forgive and trust, or we can live in fear and/or bitterness/resentment, even hatred.
Oh trust me, I've had my share of hurts in my life. I've been hurt a lot actually, and so I have a lot of emotional scarring on my heart.
I am currently at a point in my life to where I need to start facing my fears and hurts head on, and I need to learn to trust and have faith again.
We always hear about the word "faith" but what does it actually mean?
I recently wrote about it on my Instagram.
Faith is about taking the leap of faith, it's about allowing that person into your heart, it's about letting everything go. And most of the times, you aren't even completely sure of what you're doing or why you're doing it. Most of the time, you don't know all the details, so you're forced to just hope, believe, and pray that everything will turn out fine.
And most of the time, things do turn out just fine.
However, sometimes we mess up, people mess up, circumstances come up, and we are left to pick up the pieces. Most of the time, these things are not our fault, and sometimes yes, those people that have hurt us do need to work to regain our trust.
However, sometimes those people could be doing everything in their power to change the situation, but maybe we are the ones that need to also do our part and actually do the trusting.
& no, don't feel obligated to. Many times, especially if you've been hurt by multiple people multiple times, no one can really blame you for the way you feel. It is very valid to feel hurt and saddened and scared.
But we can either live in fear, or we can live in faith.
I'm trying to choose faith above everything. Every day is a constant battle between my mind and my spirit, with one telling me to be angry and bitter, but the other one telling me to jump off the platform. But no matter what, we all have to keep fighting on.
I've been hurt, and I've definitely been dealing with the pain. It's been getting better, but there will always be things that trigger me. It is then that I have to choose my faith, my spirit, and trust that my God will come through for me. I know, that's not always the most comforting advice to hear because it's so vague, but that's where faith comes in, right?
Unfortunately, for something like this, there are no 3 steps or rules to follow to ensure having faith and trust in a person or humanity in general. That journey looks different for each of us. I will say, however, that you are not alone. You are never alone.
So jump off the platform. You aren't completely sure of what you're doing, but most of the time, the faith and trust come after you jump. That's why it's called the leap of faith. Do it. Chances are, you'll land safely.
Let me know where you land. Or if you haven't jumped yet, let's talk about it, right where you are right now. I'm always here to listen.
And if you have anything encouraging that has helped you or any encouraging stories, please share them with me. I'd love to hear about them.